Alarm buzzer startles you awake. Your hand automatically finds the snooze button as you critically stare at the numbers on … Continue reading Excuses only lead to death
Jesus does this beautiful thing where he warns you how hard something will be before you actually step into the challenge. He warned me this would be an incredibly difficult season. Satan just tells you his way is wonderful at face value, and then later you’re wondering how you crashed and burned and get disappointed, because you weren’t expecting it. Jesus, however, says, “This will challenge, stretch and grow you, and you’re probably going to hate it, BUT it will be good.”
At least he’s honest. Continue reading You can’t get stronger without ripping your muscles
As I laid in my bed crying about my lost desires, Yahweh gave me a picture of a baby sobbing after his toy got taken from him. I thought about how drastic everything is in a baby’s world. Continue reading “BUT I WANTED THAT”: short-sighted faith
Now it’s May, and I’m getting into my sixth month of being back. I’m starting to discover resemblances of what normality must be. I feel less like a fish gasping for air while flopping around a boat deck, and finally have local friends. I have a community here. I have a ministry. I have a job. I have a temporary place to live. I have comfort. Continue reading Superabundantly Comfortable
I know I’m not alone in this because I’ve talked to a lot of women who have had red-flag ignorance issues as well. Somewhere along the way, we lose sight that our worth comes from God and try to find it in the empty words of a male who doesn’t respect our bodies as temples of God. We don’t realize all the red flags we ignored until they leave us, and suddenly the barrier of infatuation falls away. Continue reading I will never date or marry a single man
Don’t misunderstand me; I’m not saying that any of those things are bad in and of themselves. I’m just saying that we’ve started to believe, at least at a subconscious level, that those big moments are the only things that make us happy and give our lives worth or value. Continue reading Adventurous Heart Beats
I have been back in the state for three months now, and honestly, I feel like I don’t know how to have friends anymore. And it’s not that I don’t have wonderful people in my life; it’s just different now. Continue reading Can we be friends?